So, I haven't been updating this very much. Life here has been crazy. And for all of you who are reading this and thinking she has taken on too much, I have said no to certain things. But I have said yes to some things too! I am having fun with all that I am doing, don't worry bout that. Homecoming week is just going to be crazy because I am not going to have time that weekend to do homework . . . yah. You can see the problem in that. . . .
But yah. Life here has been changing me. I have been having to redefine what I believe, why I believe it, and how I share that. Don't worry, I am not going to start practicing eastern egyptian religion or something. I just am coming across different things here that I have to decide how I will react and everything.
I miss everyone at home. I feel disconnected from all that is going on, but most of the time I have so much going on that I don't think about it.
Lets see, I got a job! Very exciting. I am working at the front desk of my res hall for two hours every week. I could have picked up 2 more hours but they were on wednesday during the worst time for me so i was good and said that I wouldn't (aren't you so proud!) so yah. What else is new.
I am going out tomorrow to ARDEC (school farm) to work with my hieffer for little national western. That will be fun.
I got a really good back rub from one of the guys at swing on wednesday. the only problem is, it wasn't long enough to get rid of the knots, it was just enough to soften them up. And that means my back has no clue what to do. I don't think I have ever not had knots in my back . . . yah. so I am trying to figure out how to keep from putting more knots in my back while not hurting . . . . :)
I did get compliments on my back rubs . . . (its a tradition at Old C's to give back rubs) It was funny to see Shane's head lull when I found a knot. It was entertaining. Nina didn't like it so much because Shane was giving her a back rub, so when he was too relaxed, she didn't get a back rub . . . :-D
So yah. I should be getting down to a meeting for a biology thing . . . yah. Blah.
Tootles
AJ
Friday, September 29, 2006
Sunday, September 24, 2006
GOD IS AMAZING
(I do not have the words to say how amazing God is)
I have been struggling recently with different things, and dealing with actually spending time in the word and being just wholeheartedly involved in my walk. It is easier to just do what I want to do. But tonight, I just knew that God is in control of all that. We have been having missions month and so that has been really good. I really didn't think that I could find a small church that would be so passionately involved in Missions. And my parents told me not to hope for too much. I think that God had a plan. If you want the whole story bout that, you can read one of my other really long posts. Needless to say, God is amazing. Well, today, Jess informed me that I was comming to Flock tonight. Flocks are their Bible studies, growth group type things. so, we aranged a ride and I went. At first I felt really young and kinda out of place, but as we were worshiping and just getting to know each other, I had this feeling of peace that I was where I belong. I can't put it into words. All I can do is worship. And that is what I am doing. I cannot wait for heaven! And I think part of my struggle with keeping up reading is the fact I did not have a light to read by. But today, thanks to my neighbors, I went to home depot and got some rope lites for above my bed. I can read now without keeping up my roommate. Life is good. Buh je Dobre moc (I think that is it!)
Dobro Noc!
AJ
I have been struggling recently with different things, and dealing with actually spending time in the word and being just wholeheartedly involved in my walk. It is easier to just do what I want to do. But tonight, I just knew that God is in control of all that. We have been having missions month and so that has been really good. I really didn't think that I could find a small church that would be so passionately involved in Missions. And my parents told me not to hope for too much. I think that God had a plan. If you want the whole story bout that, you can read one of my other really long posts. Needless to say, God is amazing. Well, today, Jess informed me that I was comming to Flock tonight. Flocks are their Bible studies, growth group type things. so, we aranged a ride and I went. At first I felt really young and kinda out of place, but as we were worshiping and just getting to know each other, I had this feeling of peace that I was where I belong. I can't put it into words. All I can do is worship. And that is what I am doing. I cannot wait for heaven! And I think part of my struggle with keeping up reading is the fact I did not have a light to read by. But today, thanks to my neighbors, I went to home depot and got some rope lites for above my bed. I can read now without keeping up my roommate. Life is good. Buh je Dobre moc (I think that is it!)
Dobro Noc!
AJ
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Update
I am alive.
I am really sore from dancing for about 5 1/2 hours yesterday . . . Let's just say, I didn't strech out and I am hurting all over.
So yah. I am alive. Having a blast, but drowning in homework. I should have taking less credits.
Tootles
I am really sore from dancing for about 5 1/2 hours yesterday . . . Let's just say, I didn't strech out and I am hurting all over.
So yah. I am alive. Having a blast, but drowning in homework. I should have taking less credits.
Tootles
Monday, September 11, 2006
just a catch up!
So, I just noticed (well not just) that i haven't posted in a while. . . life has been a little more than crazy around here.
Monday - hung out around here. I went riding with Morine and had a blast. We rode for something like four or five hours up at Horsetooth Park. very beautiful. came back and walked over to Avo's but they decided that night not to put on any swing :-( so I came back and watched movies with friends. And ate the banana nut bread/cake that Morine brought me as extra from the one she made for Tim. it was really good. And gone within 24 hours!
Tuesday, did the class thing. Kinda forgot about a meeting that I had scheduled. I freaked a little. I had written it down but then it slipped my mind. I ended up going to Buffalo Exchange instead and finding out when I got home that I had forgotten the meeting. I did get a great pair of shoes that I am using for dancing. They look like ballet slippers, but they are black and shiny.
I also went to the block and bridle meeting and then to salsa dancing at the Rio. It was a trip. there were about half a dozen of us girls from campus that went. And we got hit on by old mexican guys. Not my idea of fun. I did enjoy dancing though, I am planning on sticking to swing.
Wednesday was one of the crazy days. Had class, then went to the Colligate 4H meeting. Until Shane showed up, it was slightly estrogen-ee. Went dancing and we were in the ballroom! Lots of fun. I was swing dancing!
Thursday was crappy though. I cried 4 different times. Yes. 4!!! I came back from my first class with the intention of working on a paper, but I had gotten an email from Josh. . . and it touched a nerve. And so I went through the rest of the day, not in the very best mood. And on top of it, I had to be in a lab that I really didn't want to be in. Went to MV's bible study which was more of a party because it was Beth's birthday, so we played games. I did call the Bedlions and found out, they possibly/probably/ maybe moving to Minisota over Thanksgiving. Translation. i would not get to see Kenny . . . yah. That really sucked. And I couldn't really do anything because I was at Beth's birthday party. I left my bike across campus, so on my way over to pick it up I called Lindy and we talked a while. And I cried. (2nd time) But it was what I needed. we spent over an hour just catching up. And I felt a lot better. . . . and then came back and was talking with my neighbors and my RA came by and made a comment about my "slightly depressed" status on facebook. Well, I ended up crying while I told her a short version of what had gone on. Later on, I was thinking about it and she was one of two people to that point that had hugged me that weren't in my family. so I went and thanked her for that. and ended up crying again. It was one of those bad days. But yah.
Friday was fun, got out of class kinda early, talked a little bit with some different people in my seminar class. Almost put my foot in my mouth about evolution being taught in public schools . . . also in my seminar class . . . Went swing dancing with Haley, a girl on my floor, at Club Tico. That was a blast. Live music and at least a dozen dances! I had fun. And I learned how to lead lindy. I am not that good, but I can do it at least a little.
Saturday I got up early and went "home" with Lynne and Laura. We went to the football game where COLORADO STATE BEAT CU!!! It was amazing! And lots of fun! then we came back and worked on homework and watched movies. We had gone down to paint a fence, but since it had sprinkled just a little the night before, the owners decided they didn't want us to do it.
So we headed back early. When we got back, I went on a "procrastinating-on-doing-homework" expidition. I went to the rec center for a little bit to see if there was blam practice. there wasn't. Then I decided to go try to find Goodwill. Which was more than I was bargining for, because on my way there, I almost got hit by a car, while I was on the sidewalk . . . fun times. But I did have fun exploring the store. I even found another swing skirt! Yah!! Came home and did lots of homework . . . and went to a worship night with some of the people from my dorm. Worked on more homework . . . and that was my sunday.
Today, got up went to class. Did homework and finished my laundry. I went to an Ag Teachers Association, which is basically the equivalent to Collegiate FFA here. Or the most involved, closest thing. Got plugged into that, but the down side is, I have to miss BFA. Went to blam practice. which was fun. Worked on couples dancing. And I am going to work my hardest to make the troope. Signed up and will be preforming on Saturday! I am doing the simplest possible thing but that's okay! I am getting my name out and showing I do want to do this. And there are girls from my floor already saying they are going to come watch me . . . I don't know how I feel about that, but I think I am going to let them come . . . After Blam and proformance stuff, I went to the library to study and avoid having to go to the floor meeting . . . yah. I was happy. Talked with Matthew a little while . . . and yah.
I really should be going to bed. it is already tomorrow!
AJ
Monday - hung out around here. I went riding with Morine and had a blast. We rode for something like four or five hours up at Horsetooth Park. very beautiful. came back and walked over to Avo's but they decided that night not to put on any swing :-( so I came back and watched movies with friends. And ate the banana nut bread/cake that Morine brought me as extra from the one she made for Tim. it was really good. And gone within 24 hours!
Tuesday, did the class thing. Kinda forgot about a meeting that I had scheduled. I freaked a little. I had written it down but then it slipped my mind. I ended up going to Buffalo Exchange instead and finding out when I got home that I had forgotten the meeting. I did get a great pair of shoes that I am using for dancing. They look like ballet slippers, but they are black and shiny.
I also went to the block and bridle meeting and then to salsa dancing at the Rio. It was a trip. there were about half a dozen of us girls from campus that went. And we got hit on by old mexican guys. Not my idea of fun. I did enjoy dancing though, I am planning on sticking to swing.
Wednesday was one of the crazy days. Had class, then went to the Colligate 4H meeting. Until Shane showed up, it was slightly estrogen-ee. Went dancing and we were in the ballroom! Lots of fun. I was swing dancing!
Thursday was crappy though. I cried 4 different times. Yes. 4!!! I came back from my first class with the intention of working on a paper, but I had gotten an email from Josh. . . and it touched a nerve. And so I went through the rest of the day, not in the very best mood. And on top of it, I had to be in a lab that I really didn't want to be in. Went to MV's bible study which was more of a party because it was Beth's birthday, so we played games. I did call the Bedlions and found out, they possibly/probably/ maybe moving to Minisota over Thanksgiving. Translation. i would not get to see Kenny . . . yah. That really sucked. And I couldn't really do anything because I was at Beth's birthday party. I left my bike across campus, so on my way over to pick it up I called Lindy and we talked a while. And I cried. (2nd time) But it was what I needed. we spent over an hour just catching up. And I felt a lot better. . . . and then came back and was talking with my neighbors and my RA came by and made a comment about my "slightly depressed" status on facebook. Well, I ended up crying while I told her a short version of what had gone on. Later on, I was thinking about it and she was one of two people to that point that had hugged me that weren't in my family. so I went and thanked her for that. and ended up crying again. It was one of those bad days. But yah.
Friday was fun, got out of class kinda early, talked a little bit with some different people in my seminar class. Almost put my foot in my mouth about evolution being taught in public schools . . . also in my seminar class . . . Went swing dancing with Haley, a girl on my floor, at Club Tico. That was a blast. Live music and at least a dozen dances! I had fun. And I learned how to lead lindy. I am not that good, but I can do it at least a little.
Saturday I got up early and went "home" with Lynne and Laura. We went to the football game where COLORADO STATE BEAT CU!!! It was amazing! And lots of fun! then we came back and worked on homework and watched movies. We had gone down to paint a fence, but since it had sprinkled just a little the night before, the owners decided they didn't want us to do it.
So we headed back early. When we got back, I went on a "procrastinating-on-doing-homework" expidition. I went to the rec center for a little bit to see if there was blam practice. there wasn't. Then I decided to go try to find Goodwill. Which was more than I was bargining for, because on my way there, I almost got hit by a car, while I was on the sidewalk . . . fun times. But I did have fun exploring the store. I even found another swing skirt! Yah!! Came home and did lots of homework . . . and went to a worship night with some of the people from my dorm. Worked on more homework . . . and that was my sunday.
Today, got up went to class. Did homework and finished my laundry. I went to an Ag Teachers Association, which is basically the equivalent to Collegiate FFA here. Or the most involved, closest thing. Got plugged into that, but the down side is, I have to miss BFA. Went to blam practice. which was fun. Worked on couples dancing. And I am going to work my hardest to make the troope. Signed up and will be preforming on Saturday! I am doing the simplest possible thing but that's okay! I am getting my name out and showing I do want to do this. And there are girls from my floor already saying they are going to come watch me . . . I don't know how I feel about that, but I think I am going to let them come . . . After Blam and proformance stuff, I went to the library to study and avoid having to go to the floor meeting . . . yah. I was happy. Talked with Matthew a little while . . . and yah.
I really should be going to bed. it is already tomorrow!
AJ
Sunday, September 03, 2006
hmmm . . .
So, currently I am in the process of procrastinating on doing homework . . . yah. I am actually doing a very good job at it! But, I thought I would post a little about what's up.
It has been really quiet around here since most of my floor went home for Labor Day. That's fine by me. Means I don't have to deal with boyfriends over at odd times of the day and lots of estregen. I have been working on homework. . .
Friday I went to the Navs meeting, then was going to go argentinian tango dancing, but we missed the lesson and didn't have enough guys so a few of us played frisbee in the dark (with a glow in the dark frisbee) then we watched movies till really early in the morning (okay, so like 1:30 - 2ish)
Saturday, I went to the game (instead of doing homework like I should be doing right now) We won 30 to 6 against Weber State. And CU lost their game too! It was a good day except the drunk guys behind us at the game. Then I came back, and went to "practice" for Blam! It ended up Rebecca, Travis, Alex and I were the only ones who showed up, and we couldn't figure out the Dean Collins well enough to practice, so we just worked on couples dancing. I learned some fun stuff, more blues dancing, some fun dips, and some follow stuff. Then, we didn't really want to do anything around the dorms, but we were bored so we went and played pool for a while. I didn't do half bad. Then we wandered around Old Town until we saw Ben at Zydago's and Travix went and hung out with him for a while. The three of us basically went back to the dorms so Alex could go home . . and yah. That was Saturday.
Got up today and went to church . . . it was good. Tough but good. Had lunch, then I did homework until they picked me up for Concert of Prayer, which was where they did communion and worship. Very good. It really helped. (more to come after the wrapping up of the day) and we went to dinner afterward and I came home.
So, yah. Stuff has been just tough here trying to find the balence between having fun and experienceing college, and walking with Christ. I am so struggling with really hearing God and understanding what he wants me doing and how he wants me acting. There are days that it seems like things are going good, then there are days where I just feel so lost, or screwupish. And one of the things today, was really understanding that I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO "KEEP" MY SALVATION. I don't know to really live with that. I really realized that I have become a little legalistic. okay, possibly more than a little. I just kinda check off my boxes, and go from there. it's hard to unprogram that way of thinking.
And, on top of it, I have been really considering where I am spending time. I like my church group, but I also love the swing society. They just are fun to be around. I just don't know if I am supposed to be giving as much time as I have to it, or how I should be a part of things. I don't know if I entered into it with the right reasons. I want to have fun and it's a place where I can have good, clean fun. I don't want to lose that, but I don't know how well it is going to work . . .
so yah. If you guys want to pray that I can really figure out how this works, and where God really wants me to be, I would be very thankful.
And, I need to be getting going. I am tired and I need to read about 20 more pages in ED stuff before I go to bed tonight so I can go riding tomorrow.
AJ
It has been really quiet around here since most of my floor went home for Labor Day. That's fine by me. Means I don't have to deal with boyfriends over at odd times of the day and lots of estregen. I have been working on homework. . .
Friday I went to the Navs meeting, then was going to go argentinian tango dancing, but we missed the lesson and didn't have enough guys so a few of us played frisbee in the dark (with a glow in the dark frisbee) then we watched movies till really early in the morning (okay, so like 1:30 - 2ish)
Saturday, I went to the game (instead of doing homework like I should be doing right now) We won 30 to 6 against Weber State. And CU lost their game too! It was a good day except the drunk guys behind us at the game. Then I came back, and went to "practice" for Blam! It ended up Rebecca, Travis, Alex and I were the only ones who showed up, and we couldn't figure out the Dean Collins well enough to practice, so we just worked on couples dancing. I learned some fun stuff, more blues dancing, some fun dips, and some follow stuff. Then, we didn't really want to do anything around the dorms, but we were bored so we went and played pool for a while. I didn't do half bad. Then we wandered around Old Town until we saw Ben at Zydago's and Travix went and hung out with him for a while. The three of us basically went back to the dorms so Alex could go home . . and yah. That was Saturday.
Got up today and went to church . . . it was good. Tough but good. Had lunch, then I did homework until they picked me up for Concert of Prayer, which was where they did communion and worship. Very good. It really helped. (more to come after the wrapping up of the day) and we went to dinner afterward and I came home.
So, yah. Stuff has been just tough here trying to find the balence between having fun and experienceing college, and walking with Christ. I am so struggling with really hearing God and understanding what he wants me doing and how he wants me acting. There are days that it seems like things are going good, then there are days where I just feel so lost, or screwupish. And one of the things today, was really understanding that I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TO "KEEP" MY SALVATION. I don't know to really live with that. I really realized that I have become a little legalistic. okay, possibly more than a little. I just kinda check off my boxes, and go from there. it's hard to unprogram that way of thinking.
And, on top of it, I have been really considering where I am spending time. I like my church group, but I also love the swing society. They just are fun to be around. I just don't know if I am supposed to be giving as much time as I have to it, or how I should be a part of things. I don't know if I entered into it with the right reasons. I want to have fun and it's a place where I can have good, clean fun. I don't want to lose that, but I don't know how well it is going to work . . .
so yah. If you guys want to pray that I can really figure out how this works, and where God really wants me to be, I would be very thankful.
And, I need to be getting going. I am tired and I need to read about 20 more pages in ED stuff before I go to bed tonight so I can go riding tomorrow.
AJ
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